Friday, December 29, 2006

drowning

that's how it feels sometimes.
like you're drowning.

I know, "it goes fast", "you'll wish this time back", "it doesn't get easier" (that is my least favorite line because it is a lie), etc...

Somehow those bits of 'wisdom' are not making this particular moment go by any faster.

It's bad enough when ONE baby wants to eat every two hours and won't sleep for more than 20 minutes, but double that, and no, it's not the same hour or same twenty minutes.

speaking of which, I have to go....it's starting again. (I JUST laid the second one down)

6 comments:

jody said...

which one is your least favorite? you think it does or does not get easier? :-)
Just curious. want to be sensitive to you and others....
Much love.

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Holly said...

My least favorite is: "it does NOT get easier"

to me, I know not to everyone, but to me, the newborn stage is the toughest and most confusing time.

I know that some love this stage and that it is their favorite but, again, to me, this is not what I was cut out for.

I do agree that at a certain time it does not get easier, it just changes. However, we are not to that point with the twins yet. With Lydia and Samantha, we are. They will not get easier, just different, and I'm ok with that!

jody said...

i was confused...because to me, it totally gets easier. Newborns are all consuming...one newborn in all consuming, can only imagine with two. It will get easier. Hang in there. You've got a great attitude--love it that you can be honest about it. Very refreshing.

Holly said...

Thanks Jody. It's always amazing to me when you're honest about things, especially 'mommy' things, all these people start popping up to say "ME TOO!" as if they were just waiting for someone else to say it.
I found that to be most true with my two bouts of postpartum..it's amazing to me how many women endure that without telling a soul. So, my new mission as a mom...be positive all of the time but at the crucial times, be honest.

A new purpose said...

hang in there Holly - as a mommy to twin girls i can say that it DOES and WILL get easier! - unfortunately - when you are in the middle of it.... it seems to drag on - I get all choked up when reading your blog because I remember it all to vividly.... way to vividly.... you know how when you think of your childhood memories and you have small clips of "video" or snapshots in your head of a moment.... and as you gt older you have more and more complete memories - dates times and such as your brain matures and you are able to retin information and knowledge.... know where i am headed here? - the first 8 months with my twins - snapshots in my head - i was existing on autopilot - that was the only way to get thru sometimes! - and unfortuately - wherever you go you will be the icon of some curious onlookers ill-placed comment or question - i have had to say so many things that i thought were never going to come out of my mouth - like " no- we did not use fertility drugs" (is that even a polite question?) or " no- I do not feel like i got the 'short' end of the stick - I love my twins"

anyway - hang in there - if ya ever need an ear - I have been there sista! - email me -
travnbarb@gmail.com