I have had several really good days in a row.
And now, there's TODAY.
A good day around here still has it's very large share of frustrating moments, lots of screaming (it's rarely true crying and so I refer to it as screaming), a very tired mommy and daddy and sprinkles of major discipline.
But the difference between a good day and a bad day? Well, it leaves me speechless.
Today is the kind of day that I wish I had words for not to bore or depress anyone but just so I didn't feel so alone in this massively overwhelming situation.
There are days that I snap under the weight of it all and other days that I really barely feel it and actually enjoy the weight (I can't believe I'm actually saying that because today has been so bad, but....)
I even fret to write that much because I can hear the thoughts running through someones mind:
"other people would love to have your situation but can't", "it goes fast" (you know that's my favorite!), "but you're doing such a good job" (for the ONE hour that you got to see us this MONTH), "there is a world of people suffering out there and you are so blessed..."
anyway, for not having words this sure did go long...
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i saw a quote today (actually it was on a kleenex-weird huh) and it said, "I lost my mind raising my kids but I found my soul."
i'm sorry you had a bad day.
sherilyn
My relationship with God has never reached this level before. Complete survival comes from him. So maybe I went backwards for a while, but it got me somewhere really good. I'm stronger. I'm praying for you a lot and miss you tons.
I can't imagine anything goes fast when there's four of them. I love you!
oh do i know what you mean. i don't know how you keep going. i have been having quite the pity parties myself lately. i think it is just the sheer loneliness of being home all day--there's nobody (and not enough time) to process all the crazy things that one day (good or bad) can hold. thanks for posting this and letting me know someone else feels the same.
You are amazing and there is no need to care about what the rest of the world thinks. I send you a box of hugs and a hip bump just for old times...
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