Almost two.
I wondered when it would hit.
When I would look around and just go "AHHH".
I'm sure that moment is different for everyone and it doesn't hurt that Jake is home.
In the last few weeks I have:
-let my mother's helper go and have been ok with out her
-been shopping several times with all four kids which isn't easy but it's at least doable
-gone to an air show and survived ;-0 (I just had to put that in here!)
-actually found myself thinking "hmm, now what should I do?" and it's not out of panic or stress but just out of being caught up - relatively speaking that is.
-recommitted to working with the high schoolers at our church and feel like I can be there to give something rather than being hit or miss; this is such a passion of mine that to be a part of it again is just lighting up every little corner of my life and the girls in my group this year are so READY. They are willing to share/learn/grow and it's exciting.
-been a part of starting a group for ladies that will meet on Tuesday nights in a local coffee shop to talk about God, Jesus, the Bible and what that all means for them. A group where they can clear things up about all that 'stuff' they hear about Christians. not a group to convert, just a group to get some answers! (or to have girl time - whatever the need may be that night!)
and all that is awesome, it gives me energy and I couldn't think of having it any other way
but in all that greatness I am finding that my 'self' discipline isn't so great.
my schedule and thoughts have been so busy and captive to the survival of our household that thinking about myself or disciplining myself, no matter how hard I fought, took a back burner.
The Internet, eating, scripture memory, Bible study, writing notes, etc...
all things important to me but all the sudden they are all weaknesses.
These weaknesses and one struggling friendship in my life have been consuming me and I know which way to turn with it all, but it's the turning part that gets me.....
Focus on Truth not on perceptions
Focus on Forgiveness the 70x7 kind
Focus on Your God not your gods
In the weakest of moments,
Focus on the Bigger Picture not the moment
In the 'Hmmmm' moments
Focus on His word the ultimate food
Focus on what is happening not what could be
Focus on today you are not promised tomorrow.
4 comments:
enjoy those "ahh" moments, and just fall into His arms!
I specifically remember those 'aahhh' moments with each of my older kids. And I always felt like throwing myself a big party!
Hear hear! I echo those sentiments.
I wondered when you'd start feeling this. It's not every day...but there will be more and more!! It's the beginning of a beautiful stage!!
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