starting over.

starting Good New about Injustice over.

I didn't get through the preface last time because I was pretty sure he was taking a shot at evangelism....something kinda close to my heart.

But, injustice is too, so I'm starting again - and I just devoured about 40 pages in one sitting.

That's a lot for a girl who reads kinda slow.

a LOT.

wow.

books like this always leave me wondering how this fight for justice works for a stay at home mama of four little kids like me?

I see Jody.

and she seems to have figured it out.

and I'm proud, motivated and excited,

but still confused as to where the time comes from.

(really, a call to her will be next on my list after this book ;-)

I don't have it figured out.

But I want to.

I so desperately want to put action behind these gut wrenching tears I shed all by myself in my living room so often from 1-3pm (nap time)

HOW!?

is the answer just obvious but too hard and I don't want to admit it?

is the answer just not revealed to me personally yet?

is the answer right around the corner? if so, I want it so bad I can taste it.

Throw moving into the picture and I just get frustrated beyond words.

It does hold me over to know that I may be able to volunteer at IJM soon.

I have even thrown around planning our next home close to their headquarters so it's more than doable.

Where is my place in this, exactly,

How?

When?

I love these questions. They get me outside of me.

As frustrated as I get about the answers, I am encouraged just to be dealing with them.

However, an answer....any answer, would be good. Very good.

(Since I'm the "One" in charge and have the right to say what is good and what is not good....HA!)