Funny.
We were sitting on our balcony enjoying the sounds of the ocean while the girls were going to sleep in the hotel room.
It was the eve of our 11 year anniversary and I was trying to think of something new or profound that we hadn't talked about and I was trying to marvel at the fact that it had been 11 years.
I was blank.
I started to feel bad about that but really, why was I blank?
I was blank because the reason we didn't have anything profound and new to talk about is because we are talkers to begin with.
I'm not saying my marriage is better than anyones because we talk so much, I'm just saying that it so happens we both have very talkative personalities and we rarely talk just on the surface.
Jake's a deep talker and I'm just a talker all around, I don't care if it's deep or not, I'm in!
And the reason I wasn't marveling at 11 years is because I have a personal belief that 11 years shouldn't be as big of a deal as it is now a days to be married.
That is how it's supposed to be, right?
It shouldn't be some crazy thing and so I don't get all hyped up that 'we made it'.
That is not to say that I am not grateful and blessed to have the family that I have, I know Where it came from, I know Who gave it to me, I know it's a gift not to be lightly received and lightly receive it I do not.
But to marvel that it has "actually made it 11 years",
isn't that like saying to Him that I am shocked His gift would last that long?
I'm sure there are a thousand ways to look at this and my marriage is a unique gift with lots of unique qualities (good and bad!) but either way,
this is how God created it and we have enjoyed His gift for 11 years now...
THAT is something I can get all hyped up on!
Not that the marriage has 'made' it this far but that we have 'enjoyed' it this long and the growth we've experienced in this past 11 years is growth that no other gift would have ever given us.
God knows what He's doing.....THAT is exciting!
And I'm nervous, excited, apprehensive, impatient, dreamy, and ready to see what God has in store for the next 11 years of this gift.
I love you Jake, I love our marriage....all of it.
6 comments:
:) Smiling at your 11 year thoughts. Happy (belated) Anniversary!!
and I love that picture of you two! So cute!! Happy 11 years! (love your thoughts about "that's how it's supposed to be!" Amen, sister!) :)
Ok, Always the sentimental one, I've got tears streaming down my cheeks from seeing this picture and just thinking back to your wedding day, the happiness there, then, and now, and I, too, am just so full of joy for the two of you, and where you are today in your relationship with each other and with the Lord.
What a gift! I love you both! Mom
Yea!! I too remember "the" day...wind blowing, beautiful weather, hot bridesmaids...the whole bit!! :O) Congratulations to you both for loving each other more now, then you did before!
you guys are great. the cassada's are BLESSED to know the Panter's. here's to MANY more!!!
I love this. :) - Kelli
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