2 conclusions

after prayer, lots of journaling, and an awesome conversation with my mom on the phone, I am at two conclusions about the CASA 'thing':

1. I don't like to be rejected but this was not about me in the first place.

It's about the voiceless.

So, I'm moving on to advocate for the voiceless that are still there.

I could go to the CASA in the DC district, and I still may, but later.

I have 'people' in that office and one phone call would be all it'd take.

There's that prayer that won't leave me alone....I prayed that God would shut a door if it wasn't the right direction, and He did.

I feel like, right now, going to the DC CASA would be saying to God,

"Thanks for shutting the front door but I'm just going to use the side door".

I asked for a closed door. It closed.

2. The conclusion of the new plan:

God, before this all even happened, laid another idea (that I will not be revealing here!) on my heart and now that the CASA door is closed, for now, I feel the freedom and the time to invest in this idea.

This idea also includes my girls on a much larger scale (which makes me excited on a whole new level!)

We will move forward from Sept thru Dec with the new idea, a new year of school and still much prayer.

If after Dec passes the Holy Spirit is still pressing in hard on the CASA thing, then I'll make the call to the DC office.

selfishly, I feel dumb for sharing with so many people and not waiting until the door was open/closed first but who knows what God did with those conversations?

and with the new plan, came a fun new list for me to start checking off this week....

WITH the girls!