Thursday, February 24, 2011

just is what it is

some days I'm not a good mommy.

some days was today.

some days I'm an ok mommy.

today was not that day.

some days I want the chance to do the day over again.

some days was today.

some days I feel the power of God's love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness and self-control racing through my heart.

today was not that day.

today was the day I looked into my kids eyes as they laid down to go to sleep and was ashamed.

today was the day that I prayed a prayer of protection from my mistakes over my children's lives.

Lord, protect them from my mistakes.

May they learn from them but may my mistakes never put them in therapy.
Because then I'd have to go to therapy over the fact that my kids were in therapy because of me and I plan on not being able to afford putting five people in long-term therapy like that.


Back to what I was saying about TODAY (not 20 years from now).


Tomorrow His mercies are new.
Tomorrow Mommy will remember that all the love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness and self-control tactics are not achieved on her own - or even perfected in one day.
Tomorrow Mommy's going to try again because I can't bear to look into their eyes at night like that.

4 comments:

Tisha said...

Been there with you many times! I will pray for a better day for you tomorrow my friend. ♥

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Yep...it was one of those days around here too. When I tucked Morgan into bed tonight my heart broke as I looked into her gray eyes knowing that I had totally lost my patience with her quite a few times today. She is sooo precious. So grateful for God's mercy and grace and that they are new every morning. So glad that our Heavenly Father loves us unconditionally. Tomorrow will be a better day!!!

Courtney said...

oh, those days are SO hard! ugh.
so thankful He met you right where you were this morning!

Amy said...

Oh, how I love this post.
Not because you had a bad day, but because I know I'm not alone.
Hugs to you!