what a day...

These are the days that I get angry at our current situation. Jake was supposed to be home this morning from a week long trip to the Orient BUT that darn weather just always knows when to ruin your plans, doesn't it? Too much lightning, I guess, to take off. So, there went my entire plan and my day. More last minute babysitters, more phone calls for help, more stress.
..."and this too shall pass" I just hope it passes quickly.
I got some advice today to control what I can and let the rest just happen and the only thing I can control is my skin and everything within! Great advice, I thought, for anyone else out there who feels like their world is never predictable. I am slowly adjusting to this craziness, but it's just not smooth or pretty. I am having to be more honest about my struggles than I ever have been before (that part is actually quite liberating - you should try it! you'd be suprised how much freedom it gives others to deal with their own hurt as well!), I am having to learn how to teach people how to help me, I am being stretched emotionally to the point when I go to bed at night it feels more like I was stretched physically. And yet, that still small voice never leaves my side, never stops holding my hand and never stops clearing the path...He always goes before me, is always beside me and always has my back (which is really good because I'm just too busy to look back there!). Hangin' in there....