all four of them.
Sophie was pouting.
Nora asked her why.
Sophie says, "because I want to be like mommy".
It's true. I can't remember many times in the last week that we have laughed together or times that it has been peaceful here.
we've had countless public embarrassing moments.
the bickering and hitting is constant.
nap time is a mess (twins are in that "needing nap but not really" phase).
the weather here just turned bitter cold (19 degrees today, as a HIGH).
and I don't know what else, but the behavior and attitudes are ug.ly.
and if Sophie's statement is indicative of where it's coming from
then this mama has some praying and thinking to do.
we are back to that whole, "disciplining every 15 min. because if one child misbehaves once an hour, that's every 15 min. I need to be administering some sort of something"
and I'm calm, and put together, and creative with discipline and unbothered by their testing....until 9am.
from 6:30-9am I am a fantastic mother.
but by 9am, I have been pushed and whined at and the noise level is insane, and again, I don't know what else, but 'I'm done' (and that's exactly what comes out of my mouth)
But, back to Sophie's statement.
I feel like quiting.
I won't, I love my kids and am passionate about winning this battle in their lives, for Jesus glory and for His purposes, I will fight for their hearts and submission and even more for their self-worth.
But when we have weeks like this, I feel very behind and like I am not doing such a hot job and how can I be so passionate if they act the way they do?
I am needing clarity and peace and encouragement.....and I know where to go.
So, I'm gonna get off here and go there (with earplugs because it's nap time but no one is obeying and it's a mess up there)
5 comments:
ahhh, I needed to hear this today...my house is in shambles and the kids have been sent to their rooms a number of times....me losing my "cool" very often...also, check our blog for a very interesting development! Also, a little worrisome! Trying like mad to get stationed by you...coming up soon for assignment time....where are you looking at living? ya know, without going to the poor house in the process!
girl - I hear ya...I understand ya...I've been there...but I promise you...because you are seeking for answers in the right place...this gets better...and it's good...and it's fun and it's breath-taking. Fight - fight - fight....good thing you've got big guns in your corner!
Think I can get stationed by you too? DC sounds GREAT! ☺
I hear ya about your week. Have plenty of them here too. They come in spurts or waves. Hang in there mama. When it's bad, it's got nowhere to go but up.
BTW, I like this picture of you 5!
You make me feel better about myself. Thanks. :)
:o)! love from across town. been there, done that. hang in there!
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