I mean really, look at this stuff, it's awesome:
Don't be afraid of either.
(Or that's at least what helps me handle this tension).
if i hadn't had Him in the peace, calm and still...i would be dead right now. as it is, i feel like i'm drowning. but the ONLY reason i'm not is because He was in the calm.
And I wonder if I'm not as cool as they are.
Did God think they were cooler so He called them to something bigger (in my eyes).
And then I am convicted.
Because that right there, that attitude I just revealed, is an attitude of ungratefulness.
Ungratefulness and conceit.
Ungrateful because since God did place me where I'm at right now, He should be praise for it instead of questioned.
Conceit because...AS IF!?
As if I have anything to do with it!
Yes, I do believe, firmly, that we have free will.
WE choose so much about our lives and the directions they go, the places we live, the foods we eat, what we do to those around us, what we do to ourselves, how we are with our families, the GOD we choose to serve, the idols we choose to make up...and I could go on.
BUT, I also firmly believe in the Sovereignty of God and that no matter what ungrateful or conceited choices we make, His will will be accomplished.
And I am listening.
I do not feel as though I am running from something - that would be a whole other post with mentions of Jonah and Thomas....
Rather I'm in the middle of a spiritual battle that has me being the dork in the middle of the game Keep Away.
Slowly, BUT SURELY, I am grabbing this 'ball'.
I don't want to be the dork in the middle.
I want to embrace this peace, embrace this calm, get on my face and reverently give credit where credit is due for this season of simplicity in our lives.
And if it lasts my whole life, then I want to perfect what loving Him, praising Him, giving to Him looks like during the stillness.....
anyone else with me?
Moses drew near unto the think darkness where God was...
God still has hidden secrets, hidden from the wise and prudent. Do not fear them; be content to accept things that you cannot understand; wait patiently.
Presently He will reveal to you the treasures of darkness, the riches of the glory of the mystery.
Mystery is the only veil of God's face.
Do not be afraid to enter the cloud that is settling down on your life.
God is in it.
The other side is radiant with His Glory.
-Mrs. C.E. Cowman